The mission: swim suit shopping
Oh, how I loathe it! But, I must accept this mission if I am to soak in the sun and enjoy the pool (and hopefully some beach) this summer.
I don't care what size you are, finding the suit is a pain. You could be a size 2 and not find anything that is right for you.
Do I buy a one piece? A tankini? A swim dress?
Bikini is not even an option for me!
I have probably tried on at least 50 different suits in the last week or so. Different sizes, different tops with different bottoms. Different patterns, all trying to hide those wonderful imperfections that make trying on suits so difficult and depressing.
The older I get the more I want a suit that is modest. (not that I've ever had a suit that wasn't, but now I'm just more aware of it) However, I don't want to buy a suit my grandma would buy either. I'm still young, right?!
So, I think I found one the other night. I need to go back and try it on again just to make sure. I just hope it's still there! I really don't want to have to go through this again for a long while!
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
processing...
Pardon me as I process the happenings of today. Mainly, Mark Souder. I am frustrated, saddened, angry and many other emotions that are all mixed up.
I am saddened and angry by his admission of an affair. A Christian man who has been committed to "family values" thru his campaigns.
I am frustrated with people who are now bashing him even more because he has fallen.
I am angry at those who are happy he has stepped down.
I don't understand how some people can judge him by his actions and yet do not know him.
I am angry that this situations may make more people believe that Christians are hypocrites and give them more reasons why they dont want anything to do with the Christian faith.
We live in a fallen world and everyone is a sinner in need of God's grace and forgiveness. Mr. Souder will have concequences for his actions, but God's grace is sufficent and enough.
I am saddened and angry by his admission of an affair. A Christian man who has been committed to "family values" thru his campaigns.
I am frustrated with people who are now bashing him even more because he has fallen.
I am angry at those who are happy he has stepped down.
I don't understand how some people can judge him by his actions and yet do not know him.
I am angry that this situations may make more people believe that Christians are hypocrites and give them more reasons why they dont want anything to do with the Christian faith.
We live in a fallen world and everyone is a sinner in need of God's grace and forgiveness. Mr. Souder will have concequences for his actions, but God's grace is sufficent and enough.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Tears
Today was a day of many tears.
There were tears of sadness and loss as I remembered my dear friend Rachel's homecoming. It's hard to believe it's been a year. I remember her death like it was just yesterday. I'm so thankful though that she is celebrating one year of Paradise!
There were tears today when my Drew ran up to Laura with a huge smile accross his face while saying her name. What a blessing that was to me and Laura. He doesn't do that with anybody except family. I am so thankful for Laura and her unconditional love for Drew.
There were tears today when Jarod decided he didn't want to participate in a friend's birthday party. They went to Lazer X and he was just extremely scared about playing the game. So, we talked and prayed and talked some more. No convincing from anyone would get him to play. I felt like I deal with "issues" with Drew all the time, I don't want to deal with "isssue" with my non special needs kid. However, I am so thankful for gracious hosts and friends of jarod's that kept encouraging him. What a wonderful example of love that they all showed Jarod today. It really made me step back and realize that Jarod does have some pretty intense fears like the dark and I just need to keep praying through it and with him to help him overcome his fears.
I am started a diet this week and there were tears tonight when I was hungry! But, I am thankful that I have food and that I am trying to make healthy choices and lose weight.
Tears can be so healing. I'm glad that I shed some today and that God keeps showing me His faithfulness and goodness.
There were tears of sadness and loss as I remembered my dear friend Rachel's homecoming. It's hard to believe it's been a year. I remember her death like it was just yesterday. I'm so thankful though that she is celebrating one year of Paradise!
There were tears today when my Drew ran up to Laura with a huge smile accross his face while saying her name. What a blessing that was to me and Laura. He doesn't do that with anybody except family. I am so thankful for Laura and her unconditional love for Drew.
There were tears today when Jarod decided he didn't want to participate in a friend's birthday party. They went to Lazer X and he was just extremely scared about playing the game. So, we talked and prayed and talked some more. No convincing from anyone would get him to play. I felt like I deal with "issues" with Drew all the time, I don't want to deal with "isssue" with my non special needs kid. However, I am so thankful for gracious hosts and friends of jarod's that kept encouraging him. What a wonderful example of love that they all showed Jarod today. It really made me step back and realize that Jarod does have some pretty intense fears like the dark and I just need to keep praying through it and with him to help him overcome his fears.
I am started a diet this week and there were tears tonight when I was hungry! But, I am thankful that I have food and that I am trying to make healthy choices and lose weight.
Tears can be so healing. I'm glad that I shed some today and that God keeps showing me His faithfulness and goodness.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
I'm still here...
I have had several friends recently tell me that I need to blog some more. They miss reading about the Hansen's! Well, to those of you who read this...I am still here.
I'm finding it harder to write these days. Not that there isn't anything to write about; I just don't think about it. So, I am going to start to write at least once a week.
We all had a nice spring break. We went to Pokagon State Park for a few days with our friends, the Doron's. Andrew loves going there, mostly because he loves to swim in the pool! It is just relaxing for us! We came home on Wed. and then the boys and I left on Thurs. for Indy for a couple of days. Andrew has been talking about going to Gramma and Papa Pete's house for quite a while and Jarod also enjoys going. So, off we went. It was as relaxing as Pokagon. But we had a good time, none the less. We , of course, headed to the Children's Museum. They had the the big slide set up at the stairs with an Indiana Jones theme. Jarod loved it! I will try to post some pics later.
I'm finding it harder to write these days. Not that there isn't anything to write about; I just don't think about it. So, I am going to start to write at least once a week.
We all had a nice spring break. We went to Pokagon State Park for a few days with our friends, the Doron's. Andrew loves going there, mostly because he loves to swim in the pool! It is just relaxing for us! We came home on Wed. and then the boys and I left on Thurs. for Indy for a couple of days. Andrew has been talking about going to Gramma and Papa Pete's house for quite a while and Jarod also enjoys going. So, off we went. It was as relaxing as Pokagon. But we had a good time, none the less. We , of course, headed to the Children's Museum. They had the the big slide set up at the stairs with an Indiana Jones theme. Jarod loved it! I will try to post some pics later.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
normalcy
I am so ready for normalcy! All the delays and cancellations have really done a number on my emotions and motivation. I know that I get so much more accomplished when I am on a schedule. I'm hoping to get some things done today and then take Andrew out to lunch. He gets "out of whack" too when his routine is different.
On another note... Yesterday, as I was waiting for the kids to be dismissed from school, a mom was talking to her son, or me. or to anyone who listening (I'm not sure which). She was commenting on how assinine it was that the first graders couldn't come out before the kindergarteners. And that if her child didn't pass the alpha test (gifted program), she was going to pull her child out of this ridiculous school. I just smiled and shrugged my shoulders. Inside though I was ready to blow. I don't appreciate parents who berate our school. Haverhill is a good school. And what a poor example to set in front of your kid. Maybe it is just this one parent. She is an EGR in my life. (extra grace required).
On another note... Yesterday, as I was waiting for the kids to be dismissed from school, a mom was talking to her son, or me. or to anyone who listening (I'm not sure which). She was commenting on how assinine it was that the first graders couldn't come out before the kindergarteners. And that if her child didn't pass the alpha test (gifted program), she was going to pull her child out of this ridiculous school. I just smiled and shrugged my shoulders. Inside though I was ready to blow. I don't appreciate parents who berate our school. Haverhill is a good school. And what a poor example to set in front of your kid. Maybe it is just this one parent. She is an EGR in my life. (extra grace required).
Monday, January 25, 2010
5 on Monday
Today I am thankful for:
1. A good report from the orthodontist. Jarod is such the trooper!
2. A coopertive Andrew at the orthodontist. I brought the laptop and thanks to free WiFi, he was able to play Wheel of Fortune.
3. I bought myself a new shirt today. I know it's nothing earth shattering, but I needed a pick me up with the gray gray snowy day.
4. I had a wonderful run in with a friend at WalMart. We had not seen each other since her daughter passed away over the summer. It was great to see her and catch up. We are hoping to get together for lunch soon. She is a talker and so there is never a dull moment in conversation!
5. I am so thankful for Chocolate Cheerios. I love then! They are the perfect way to get my chocolate fix without all the sugar and calories. They are even good with milk!
1. A good report from the orthodontist. Jarod is such the trooper!
2. A coopertive Andrew at the orthodontist. I brought the laptop and thanks to free WiFi, he was able to play Wheel of Fortune.
3. I bought myself a new shirt today. I know it's nothing earth shattering, but I needed a pick me up with the gray gray snowy day.
4. I had a wonderful run in with a friend at WalMart. We had not seen each other since her daughter passed away over the summer. It was great to see her and catch up. We are hoping to get together for lunch soon. She is a talker and so there is never a dull moment in conversation!
5. I am so thankful for Chocolate Cheerios. I love then! They are the perfect way to get my chocolate fix without all the sugar and calories. They are even good with milk!
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
thankful heart
I'm trying to have a thankful heart today. Autism has shown it's ugly head today and so instead of dwelling on how it is robbing me of my little boy, I'm going to focus on just Andrew.
1. He makes me laugh! During our Christmas celebration at my parents' house, Andrew became very quiet. A mom knows that when a child is quiet, he/she is up to no good! I had my nephew be a spy and find out what Andrew was up to. The report: "Aunt Becky, he's in the sink." I went to see this for myself. Yep, it's true! Andrew's in the sink. Andrew was standing in my parents' sink in only his underwear making faces in the mirror. He also had the water turned on and getting his toes wet. I laughed till I cried!
2. There is joy in Andrew's face when he is in the snow! After school this week, Andrew has been rolling and running in the snow. He is always wanting to build a snowman. Unfortunately, it is just way to cold for us to do that yet. But it is fun to see him covered in white!
3. He still likes to snuggle with his mama! It might not last very long, but I am so thankful for those brief moments of stillness!
4. He enjoys going to the eye dr! I am thankful for a wonderful doctor that is so patient with Andrew. Andrew actually looks forward to going!
5. Andrew likes to tease! His middle name is James just like the engine from Thomas and Friends. So, when we are talking about his name, he rattles off all the engine names before getting to James. Cracks me up everytime!
I love my almost 6 year old! My prayer is that someday I might be able to have a conversation with him about what he's learning in school, what is his favorite color, etc. Right now though, I just need to focus on the positive and let God take care of the rest.
1. He makes me laugh! During our Christmas celebration at my parents' house, Andrew became very quiet. A mom knows that when a child is quiet, he/she is up to no good! I had my nephew be a spy and find out what Andrew was up to. The report: "Aunt Becky, he's in the sink." I went to see this for myself. Yep, it's true! Andrew's in the sink. Andrew was standing in my parents' sink in only his underwear making faces in the mirror. He also had the water turned on and getting his toes wet. I laughed till I cried!
2. There is joy in Andrew's face when he is in the snow! After school this week, Andrew has been rolling and running in the snow. He is always wanting to build a snowman. Unfortunately, it is just way to cold for us to do that yet. But it is fun to see him covered in white!
3. He still likes to snuggle with his mama! It might not last very long, but I am so thankful for those brief moments of stillness!
4. He enjoys going to the eye dr! I am thankful for a wonderful doctor that is so patient with Andrew. Andrew actually looks forward to going!
5. Andrew likes to tease! His middle name is James just like the engine from Thomas and Friends. So, when we are talking about his name, he rattles off all the engine names before getting to James. Cracks me up everytime!
I love my almost 6 year old! My prayer is that someday I might be able to have a conversation with him about what he's learning in school, what is his favorite color, etc. Right now though, I just need to focus on the positive and let God take care of the rest.
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